Home. Sweet. Home.

My first semester of college is officially complete. Finals are over, stress is gone and I now have one month to be with my friends, family and to relax. Today has been a good day. Coming home was great, when my roommate and I arrived in Anderson, we ate dinner with my mom, grandma and brother. Seeing my mom out of the hospital was so good, she was able to walk to me, hug me, and it was just great to see her in that condition. Tonight she told me that she really wanted to see my blog, she's heard about it and all her friends have talked to her about, but she's never read it. this makes me a little nervous, simply because this is my place to come and let everything out, so tonights post im going to be talking to her. 


Dear Mommy, 


I started this blog a while back simply to be a place where I came to share my thoughts and just write. I was writing mainly because I was going to be in Africa in a few weeks and i thought it would be neat for me to write everything down on here. Well shortly after i started writing, I found out you were in the hospital and things weren't looking good. I cannot express to you the different emotions i felt, guilt, sadness, anger. Everything you can think of. Five days after you were admitted in the hospital, I was told not to expect you to live. Your life is a complete miracle. You have been given the gift of life and God wants to use you mommy. As you begin to read the different posts you will see that i have talked a lot about things going on with you and with us. I have probably shared more than what you would want to be shared on the internet, but please hear me out on this. The things we have been through in the past month aren't normal. This is a story that people should read. This has Jesus's work all over it and for people to be able to look and see that is awesome. Your testimony has the potential to be amazing. Because of God, you fought through death. People need to hear that. That is why I have shared and why I have been so open on here. I love you so much and I literally dont know what i would do without you. I probably dont say that enough, but dont forget it. 


"When all the people saw him walking and praising God, they recognized him as the same man who used to sit begging at the temple gate called Beautiful, and they were filled with wonder and amazement at what had happened to him." Acts 3:9-10


Tonight in my quiet time I read Acts 3 and 4. In Acts 3, it tells of a man who was lame from birth. When he was healed by God, people were amazed. People saw God's work through him and people became interested in what Jesus had to offer. Your story is very similar. God is using you mommy, more than you know. 


I love you.

I'm beginning to love change.

It's been a while since i've been posting, school literally takes over my life when i'm here. Over the past few weeks i've just been beginning to notice the life change i have experienced. It's amazing to look back and see the difference in the lifestyle i want to live. God is the only reason that is happening. I am just so thankful for the different things He is doing in my life.


For anyone who hasn't been updated: my mom is out of the hospital and back and home. She is still struggling to walk and having to use a walker, but she's home and functioning. Miracles are possible and God will not fail you. This is just one example of how He has blown my mind in the past few months. Prayers please for her mindset. Addiction is a sickness, its something that anyone can struggle with and it's something that is very hard to over come. I continue to pray daily for her to just pull through this and find the strength to get to the brighter side of things. It's going to be tough for her. Satan is surrounding her life and trying to make it easier and easier for her to fall back into things, but God is going to pull her through this. He has the power to do anything, she just has to be willing. 


Also, please pray for me. I hate being away from home, but honestly the thought of having to go home for Christmas break and to deal with everything thats going on there stresses me out to the max. I like being at school where everything seems to be normal and seems to be okay. being away is a good break, but going home can be insane. 


Other things that have happened, me and my roommate started looking for apartments for next year!! so exciting, i feel so old. It's going to be nice to have our own place and not a 10X10 square with furniture in it. 


I dont think things could get any better right now, I've had an awesome weekend, I'm blessed with some amazing people in my life and in 4 days i will be done with finals. SUCCESS.